realization.

-you know what? today i've realized how infuckingconsistent i am... i can never be consistent on anything, really. Everything, in a way, has to end for me or because of me... and frankly I'm tired of it. this is the one thing id love to change about me. To be consistent on whether it be attendance for school and work, volleyball, working out, friends, boys, or even updating my blog! And because of this ill never be able to live up to anyones expectations. everything always has to change because it ends so yeah, I'm tired of change and i just need a little push in the right direction :( life why are you so cruel to me?